Originally my intention in starting yoga and meditation with Simone was to ease the stress and anxiety that was brought about from Covid. I hadn’t expected it to progress as much as it has to reach this point, and have the possibility of going further.
The yoga practice calmed my mind and freed the tension in my body that I hadn’t realised was so widely spread, and after each session I would feel lighter and relaxed. When it came to the meditation, it freed me from the anxiety that I had been feeling, but I’d also gone much deeper into it than anticipated and suddenly my mind was opened to a new plane of existence. The words that came to mind as I sunk deeper were “I am not my memories or my emotions. I just…am”, the realisation shocking and profound. Speaking to Simone after the first experience made me realise how ready and excited I was to explore deeper, and to discover myself through this process.There were difficult times, as the meditation unlocked things I’d suppressed in order to free me physically and mentally from that weight, and it made me face them. Simone was always able to reassure me and explore these feelings in our sessions and help me understand them, bringing me closer to understanding myself. Recently we had a session involving reiki healing, addressing things I hadn’t realised had affected me so much in the past. Now that I could identify this heavy feeling I’d been carrying for so long, we could really begin healing me.
I went into the meditation to confront these things, focusing on the chakras that held all this pent up tension, full of grief and worry, while Simone worked on my energies. It was…odd. Usually going under was a floaty, light feeling, where I am disconnected from my body, but this time I could feel the tension in every part of me. In what felt like a moment it suddenly seemed to pop, my body relaxing and the energy seeming to release in a poof. Then I was light and content. Speaking to Simone after felt insane as she mentioned where she’d felt the tension and I confirmed in amazement that that is where I’d felt it most as well. Since then the days have felt less cloudy, as though everything has been cleaned around me.
Although there are moments when things come up, as part of the process, I focus on the words Simone once told me: “Embrace. Accept. Observe”. The journey can be difficult, but with the guidance I’m receiving, I am eager to walk this path and reach the destination where I am fully able to see things through clear eyes.